IT TAKES PATIENCE
IT TAKES PATIENCE
When you hear the word "Patient" what does it mean to you? For me, it means having the ability to allow the nature of a thing to develop to its full potential without interference or complaint. By full I mean, knowing exactly what you were meant to be or do in this lifetime.
The Webster's Dictionary defines patient as: "bearing pains and trials without complaint." How many times have you found yourself complaining about external factors you had no control over? How many times did you find solutions to those complaints? I only ask because I have been in prison for thirty two years of my life and I can't begin to tell you how many times I've complained. All I know is that it was many and nothing really positive ever came from them?
I lost so much time while living under a roof of complaints, time that I can never get back. Thirty two years equals 11,680 days in prison, and a great number of those days I was complaining about something I had no control over. Why was that! Because in my opinion, I was not fully committed to my internal self the way I was totally engaged with my external self.
My external self (physical) didn't require the kind of hard work effort my inner self needed so it was easy to feed the physical and remove myself from the conscientious understanding that was necessary for the inner self to develop. I feel like my physical development fed off the smallest portion of my mind because my actions and behavior were selfish and filled with many complaints.
But when I started growing internally and traveling to places in my mind that were never known to me, I came to realize that the power to change me and thereby my circumstances of complaint, dwelled in me. By being patient with self, I ascended to the highest portion of my mind which contained the source of my true power! God in Man!
I started to believe in my ability to not only transition from a complaining mind set, but to become the master of my higher mental so that I could build my self assurance and live a life of patience. Finding patience was necessary for me to have a productive life, but finding the courage to live within that patience is what helped me the most.
And I say that because without living within patience, I could have never seen myself as this great architect capable of designing this beautiful life despite circumstances. Patience taught me how to balance myself so that I wouldn't ingest the kind of toxicity that voided me of the treasures and secrets of time. Patience solidified and crystallized my ambitions which afforded me the necessary peace needed to unlock the depths of my mind and bring those thoughts into a physical manifestation of my actions.
When I look from prison into society, I see a lack of patience which is why we are so aggressive, violent, angry and unwilling to understand the points of others. Our lack of patience has produced a giant hole of despair that our children, political leaders, and everyday citizens is suffering and dying from at an alarming rate. This death is not just a physical one, but an emotional, spiritual and mental carnage because we refuse to be still, turn inward and be freed from the monster within that holds all of us captive.
We are constantly turning this way and that way to fix the problem, but the solution is within. Why do you think that a six year old boy from Virginia was able to take a gun to school and shoot the teacher? Better yet, why did he even have the desire to do such a thing?
In my opinion, his six year old self is being disregarded by those entrusted to have the kind of patience necessary to raise him properly, and he has witnessed on some level the high rate of gun violence in our country and chose to act upon it as everyone else has due to some kind of dissatisfaction in his life. And yet, we won't fully commit to addressing ourselves in a way where we can have love, empathy, and respect for others. Patience is the key ingredient for one to surrender to his/her higher power of self to bring forth a kindness instead of a harm; a positive instead of a negative; and a love rather than a hate.
This is what is needed in our everyday lives to be more than the worst things we have ever done like Bryan Stevenson always says. We must change this course of destruction because as you can see, the entire world is being affected and not just a selected group of human beings. We can and must be better and this is the hope that fuels me. Thank you.
Carlos
We are constantly turning this way and that way to fix the problem, but the solution is within. Why do you think that a six year old boy from Virginia was able to take a gun to school and shoot the teacher? Better yet, why did he even have the desire to do such a thing?
In my opinion, his six year old self is being disregarded by those entrusted to have the kind of patience necessary to raise him properly, and he has witnessed on some level the high rate of gun violence in our country and chose to act upon it as everyone else has due to some kind of dissatisfaction in his life. And yet, we won't fully commit to addressing ourselves in a way where we can have love, empathy, and respect for others. Patience is the key ingredient for one to surrender to his/her higher power of self to bring forth a kindness instead of a harm; a positive instead of a negative; and a love rather than a hate.
This is what is needed in our everyday lives to be more than the worst things we have ever done like Bryan Stevenson always says. We must change this course of destruction because as you can see, the entire world is being affected and not just a selected group of human beings. We can and must be better and this is the hope that fuels me. Thank you.
Carlos
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