I Love my women  It  took me a great number of years before I could actually say those words and have my whole heart back them up. I was so indecisive, selfish and ignorant in my thinking, that I actually thought everything was about me. I mean seriously, I had no real care and concern for myself so it was impossible for me to have care and concern for women or anyone for that matter. In my book, 'Pain is my Past, Love is my Future' I speak of how my ignorance and low self worth led to me making horrible choices when it came to women. But after years of reading, writing, researching and dealing with women inside and outside of prison, I have finally figured out that I am capable of not only truly loving a woman, but being completely honest and monogamous in my heart and my actions when it comes to her. Now, I know what you are probably thinking, 'It is easy for me to say that about a woman while I am in prison dependant on her for essentials such as companionship, love, vis...

I wrote this curriculum to give our struggling youth valuable resources that will help give them the power to combat many of the same issues I dealt with in my youth. Self-esteem, peer pressure, lack of a father/mother, bullying, poverty related decision making, and a host of other things that contributes to our youth ending up in gangs, graveyards and the prison system. The effectiveness of this curriculum is based upon our (caregivers, teachers and mentors) willingness to see past our subjective minds and incorrigible thoughts as they relate to our young people. When we see a troubled youth, or they personally seek us out, we must take it as a real opportunity to inspire them and not as another failed attempt to help young people that do not desire to change or to really be helped. We must be mindful that our talking and experiences alone will not automatically change their behaviour  or their conditions. It will take our unconditional love and consistency for the young person to...

This particular post was inspired by a good friend of mine, Eden Seiuli, who asked: 'What Do You Feel Was Missing In Your Life As A Youth That Made You Make Many Bad Decisions That Eventually Landed You In Prison?' WHAT WAS MISSING? My father's absence was the first thing I immediately noticed that upset me and made me feel unloved. So when I asked my mother and she told me that she didn't know where he was, I automatically thought I was the problem. I thought that I wasn't good enough to be loved by my father and that created a constant problem and sore spot in my life. My father's absence made me focus more on the negative that surrounded me and very little on the positive. Not only was my father not in my life, I was poor, I didn't have a consistent and loving male role model, I didn't know the value of myself, and I was insecure and very angry about all of those things. I felt like there was no remedy for the dissatisfaction I felt as a child so I ac...

    BEGINNING OF PRISON I came to prison as a 19 year old, immature, young black male who was full of anger and pain. I am currently serving a 50 year prison sentence for two (2) counts of Armed Robbery and one (1) count of Felony Firearm. The judge went outside of the recommended guideline range of 3 to 8 years in prison and gave me a 50 to 75 year sentence. He did that based on acquitted charges the jury found me not guilty of. This was a violation of my Constitutional Rights, but it took 28 years before the Michigan Supreme Court ruled that it was unconstitutional for judges to use acquitted charges to enhance a defendant's sentence. So now I sit and wait for the courts to overturn my erroneous sentence and resentence me to time served considering the amount of time I have spent in prison on a Constitutional violation. It was difficult for me to change when I first came to prison because I still possessed the same destructive traits I displayed in society. The only differen...